Nothing is fair...

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2005-07-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

back le..as u all noe..we made it to the nationals le..playin against bp on thurs..will try our best de..for 3 and 4 placing lor..but i kinda tired le leh..played so many matches...i haven grown ..still stuck there...maybe even deproved ba...maybe i m the one pullin the whole team down...missed quite a no. of shots..sry..hope to find myself back ba...haax..now bball n studies super impt 2 me sia...guess i haf nth much 2 worry abt le la..let go of quite a no. of tings le...just wanna concentrate on the more impt stuffs..ath else can wait..hope we can get 3rd ba..c boys jia you.. we can do it de..=)

qqq

2005-05-11T19:51:00.000+08:00

arlo peeps..i m back to update liaoo..we lost by 3 goals again..sian diao..due to my lousy goal keepin..i let in 3 goals...zi bei sia...sry guys..guess i m beta bein a striker ..defender..or midfielder..hahax..2j not bad la..showed sportmanship..lol..but the game still v fun la..lol..fri startin trg ler..hahax..lookin 4ward to it..oso somebody de b dae sia..lol..guess nth else la ba..oh ya...happy b dae ..ning xin ah kim..lol..byee ~

2005-03-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

competition comin ler...gotta train...gettin lousier n lousier..while team mates r gettin stronger n stronger...scared i carn fit in..gotta improve...or else reli cham liao....workin hard towards my aim..not going to care for ath else except bball n studies....wish me luck baa...

sian..

2005-03-25T13:54:00.000+08:00

siann arr...2dae good fri...nth 2 do..stayed at hm..v tired..plannin 2 sleep till 6 later...hehx..pig sia..ytd had a match wif the netballers...tio tok sia..hahax...dey qiang laa..lolx..hit dorcas in the face...sorii ~..played till 6 lidat...den went hm wif bballers lor..quite a fun dae ba..

*hope u feelin better ba...got ath must come n tell me k? me here 4 u yeahh? takkare n cheerioZ *

over?

2005-03-18T20:28:00.000+08:00

holidaes almost comin 2 an end le..sian..haven finish hw sia..gonna pia le..or else diee..2dae trg quite slack ba..cuz fuhua came..after trg nth lo..ate lunch den went stanley house plae ler..hehx...fun sia..got TOK by 2 westwood bballers...v pro sia..hahax..played for a while den went home ler..quite a fun dae ba..hahx..

*forgive me laa..dun angri le..buy u ice cream? hahax..sry laaa..*

*over le? dun wan so fast..*

happi.

2005-03-16T18:53:00.000+08:00

hmm...ytd spoke to lil sis on the fone for half an hr..hahx...quite fun la...v long nva tok 2 her on fone ler..brings back memories of p6 tt time ba..lolx..still force me to come blog sia..so me b nice n blog lorr...

2dae went to yew tee to plae bball..quite fun ba...den came back to je lib..saw alex dey all..wanna go plae lan..but not enufh space ba..so onli left me n zr plae lor...den went back hm ler..quite a boring dae ba..wish 2molo will b more fun at ws house..hehehx..

*on the verge of giving up..maybe i should juz do so..*

saddd..

2005-02-20T14:22:00.000+08:00

wohoo..b boys into the nationals le worr...jia you ~.. we c boys must oso work hard baaa..2dae hong jie b dae wor... happi b daee ~..hahax..common test startin 2molo wor..everione jia you ..sth v sad happened laa...cannot help it la..argh..dunoo laa..not going to care...workin hard towards my goal~..wish u will b behind me ba..= ) ..takkare peeps~

blah blah blah.

2005-02-01T20:03:00.000+08:00

ai ni.

2005-01-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

ytd v lucky..won swiss cottage..thx to calvin ba..hahax..phew ~ ytd watched finish match le..den went to yew tee to plae bball..weird tt the bball court no pple de..hahax..played till 6 20 ba..den went home lo..hmm...ytd quite a boring dae la..nth special happened..hahax...special thx to jie ~~= ) takkare wor ~

*wo ai ni*

saddening mann~

2005-01-25T19:52:00.000+08:00

hmm..juz back here 2 crap la..hahax..nth to do now...to somebody...i feel tt u shuld change man..u r wae too wad..not tt i wanna tok bad abt u or wadeva la..maybe u should juz reflect on ur behaviour...change for the better la...i m sure other pple would wanna accept u after tt la...i m in no position to sae all these la..tt iz juz wad i feel...everione iz givin u a chance man..u can take it as i m crappin or wadeva la..tt iz juz wad i feel..

confuseddd...how?

2005-01-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

elooo peeps...hehx...2dae had meetin in the morning..short 1 ba..but finished everting we needed to do...efficent lehhh~...wanna go hm le..at entrance of jec...den met zhi rong n xiang hui..so stayed back to do hw at lib lo...did quite a bit la..hahax...met some people at the lib la...spoke to her for a while...feel so guilty mann...after tt ..den went to jec to plae lan 1h den go hm le lo...quite a fun dae ba...hehx..newae..wu tiao jian wei ni iz super duper niceeeeee...

*haix...din noe how u feel till i spoke to u 2dae lo..guess u r right ba..i neglected u in tt sense ba..v long nva tok 2 u..till today...haix..but reli wan u noe la..i still care a lot abt u k? sori if i made u feel tt wae...if got any xin shi..come tell kor ba..okiee? sure be there for u de...=)*

*haix..had i made the right choice? inside feel empty empty de...makin u sae those words r so hard...though sae it le..but do u reli mean it? haix..plus those tings u do...i dun feel too gd abt it ... reli confused inside...but i m sure abt sth..i meant everi word i sae n i wanna b dere for u..listenin to ur troubles...izit possible?*

2k 2005

2005-01-06T19:43:00.000+08:00

sch reopened le lo...hahx...sort of enjoyed it la..oso duno y...hahx..quite satisfied wif my sitting arrangement...beside woon shin...by the window..all guai kia ard me..hahax...not bad a learning environment la..hahax..teachers ar...all not bad...hahax...co form n form r nice..mdm mak n mr teo..hahx...maths tch mr teo lo..sci tch mr chen..hahx..bball teacher in charge...eng mrs josephine woon lo..scary lo..but quite nice la..hahx...chi mdm lam wan..history ms veejay..e lit mdm mak lo..hahx...teachers r nicee ba..haven reli met the sec 1 yet..hahx...1k chairperson iz one guailan gal..hahx..we in staff rm..hahax..met her .ask her for name den she dun give..got a super loud voice oso..hahx..mu lao hu...no respect for seniors...wahahahx...new year le..must work harder n get better results..da jia jia you ba ....^^.

*me confused...wad iz the feelin deep inside me?...v v v confused..maybe should juz give up on u ba...

new yr le lo..

2005-01-02T13:29:00.000+08:00

happy new yr ! haahx...sch reopening 2molo le lo...chao sian...hehx..but got new sec 1 comin in..ahahx..go bully dem..hahax...haix...one yr so fast pass le...haix...found tt i had grown quite a lot ba..so many tings happened to me...tings tt did not happen to me durin pri sch...tings i din reli like...grown more mature le la...hhahax...found a lot new frens...esp in the bball team la...at least got a bit mo qi le ba..hahax...found bball reli fun...

first came into rv..hahx...din noe anyone in my class..except rz lo..slowly den got to noe the other classmates...hahax...quite nice la...lolx......aiya..duno wad 2 sae le la..hahax..but lookin 4ward to seeing everyone back in rv again...hahax...see ya !

nice.

2004-12-29T16:14:00.000+08:00

When u are with ur lurrve one, spending quality time, time always seem to spread its wings and soar up into the sky, not leaving any part of it to the couple

wanna die le la..

2004-12-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

heyoo...2dae trg at first hiong sia...run 10 times of tt si zhe...almost died...hahax...but after tt v fun le ..hehx..plae one on one...hahax..den shootin all those....quite slack..hahax..after trg still hafta change into white shorts....ma fan...went to queen way wanting to buy shorts..but no my size...so ate macs..den went back je lib for a while..den go hm le lo...got new song le..hahax...if u r not the one..tt song iz nice mann...hahax...listen till song song...buh byee..

funn

2004-12-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

hahax...2dae the sec 1 bballers came to my house 2 do the notice board tingy...hahax...quite fun la..but we were playin most of the time...hahax...spent a long time juz 2 do a lil bit...den went to yyc house 2 finish up lo...guess the poster was quite well done ba...den zhi rong mum fetch me hm lo.....

what iz urs is urs....what isn urs isn urs...hahax....so no point fighting for anyting..juz let nature takes its course ba..leave everiting 2 fate...tt iz wad i m gonna do now...dun need to care too much abt ath or anyone...juz concentrate on doin wad i haf in mind...dun tink too much...=P..tt iz me ba~

suey sia...

2004-12-18T16:35:00.000+08:00

sueyyy....ytd at nite the fan v noisy ma..den woke me up..so i wanna stop it from makin noise lo...den finger poke in...den kyna got a cut...actually duno de lo..pain onli..but duno bleedin..hahax...woke up den noe de...but reli chao noisy ...so went to sleep in the living rm..but still noisy..so closed the door..hahax...den finally got to sleep..
early in the morning den went for trg lo...ran 4k...my stamina lousy..so run v long...haix...den come back awhile..den got punished ..ran 800m....came back..den tio punished again...bad dae....haix...den went shootin lo...tt yyc like dun wanna train lidat de lo..pple catchin rebounds den he there standin..fgi...i sort of noe how 2 jump shot le..heehx..den after trg went to jec to eat...went hm 2 sleep...den later going out eat le....buh byee ~

back..heex...

2004-12-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

ello peeps...v long nva blog le hor..heex..pai seh la...lazy....find 2dae quite fun...so decided to blog lo...
hmm...went for project in the afternoon...actually dun wanna go de..but oso sun bian going there 2 teach donna sth ma..so sui bian sui bian went lo..na bei...regretted tellin dem i was there lo...forced me to do tings i can dun do de le lo.....and was chao bu shuang for some reasons....so went over to the other gals side lo...hahax..their lame jokes chao funny lo..was tryin not to laugh out loud lo...hahax....had a bit of fun ba....and helped donna wif some questions too..but din help much...den i went off le lo...took a bus back n played mps...heex...quite fun wor....met janson n his fren...helped me quite a lot..thx !...
2molo still got trg...duno y..but looked 4ward to it..hahax..maybe iz hong jie back le ba..heex...me turnin gay le..hahax....be careful wor ~

*u had changed....i dun reli like the new u..i duno wad made the change...but i reli hate it now..but i m not gonna care anymore...found tt i care too much...way too much...should concentrate on other tings le...had neglected too many tings....let too many pple down le.....*

sports camp..

2004-09-07T19:55:00.000+08:00

finally can update le..sports camp..haha..got all dirty durin the water events..but still quite fun la..haha..found a lao3 niang2(ah bu)..wahahahaha..had lots of fun la..but could not sleep in the nite..v cold....brrrrrr...in the mornin ran 6.3..dno y cannot run le..haix..alvin n alex waited for me for a while at the end..den sprinted to the end lo..haha..should b nth else le ba..now..like most of my troubles r gone le..had been a real fool in the past..nvm..iz all in the past le..anywae..still hafta sae thx la..for helpin me grow..wanna go orh orh le..buh byeee~

dun be too upset?

2004-08-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

someting happened durin speech n drama la..dun tink abt it la..should not haf chosen such a topic ma...reli scared me u noe? k la..dun tok abt it ..hmm..den went to je..met a unreasonable woman..i was blockin her way ma..first time my fault.i standin at entrance ma..so she cannot get out..second time..got such a big empty space lo..den still ask me go away..still scold me bodoh..i was like wth lo..starin at her..she stared back la..such a chia za bo..yucks..k la..gtg to study..heex..tata~

**whenever u r feelin lonely.just close ur eyes..and i will be there ..i promise tt..k? **

fuck off...

2004-08-22T14:29:00.000+08:00

come on..juz fuck off...dun get me so pissed off everidae..do u noe? u r the onli 1 i m forced to use vulgar...i hate u..juz get out of my life..those acts of urs r gettin me v disgusted...juz give up..i doubt u can get her...so juz fuck off....na bei chao chee bye..u r the first person i hate so much..

brand new start for me..

2004-08-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

finally kai qiao le la..a brand new start for me..decided le..1st: GOD 2nd:family 3rd: studies 4th: basketball 5th: ''siblings" and friends..no more space for anyting else la..wish tt i can get back to tt xihong hu first came to rv...wish la..today was chao pissed off..wad iz his freakin problem lo? acccidentally hit? u tink i will fall for tt? take me as lil boy ar? and tt idiot zhi rong used my accnt to did sth...n tt alex..my class de..cant blief u did tt lo..yucks..dun wanna sae too much la..against woodgrove 2molo...jia you guyZ!

great fren ~

2004-08-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

2dae beat gan eng seng by 8 points..it was a great game la...good job guys..next match on thurs against hillgrove i tink..hope we can plae lidat la..den sure tok them...heeex.....now..found tt i actually great friends la..like in the bball team la...first tok abt hock seng la..good fren la..improved a lot le..still have room la..yyc..tok a great deal of crap..kao bei the most..but in the morning always come with him 2 sch la..not too bad..boon hean..a bit too quiet la..must interact more...zhi rong..hmm..ok ok la..not too bad..a lil not bu yao lian as b4 le la...ni hao..nth much 2 sae la...hope u can improve a lot..den when u sec 3 den plae la..finally..last but not least...lim hong jie..reli a great fren la..neglected him in the past...must treasure him la..together..with the 6 sec 1 s next year..hope to cheng ba quan guo ba..at least get into the nationals..prove coach wrong..me..must treasure everiting around me la..especially friends..dun wanna regret when i lose them...

i still care..

2004-08-15T11:18:00.000+08:00

hmm....u noe hu u r la..no matter how u tink..i still care la..i still care a lot abt this friendship..maybe this friendship iz driftin apart..maybe we r not so close as ever..but i still hope we can go back to the past la..a lot of tings had happened nowadays..i noe i had changed a lot...tryin my v best to change back to the old me...juz hope u all can give me some time..haix..no matter wad happened n how u tink of me...i still care..

sprained ankle..

2004-08-14T22:44:00.000+08:00

haix..ytd in sch..plae plae plae..run around..den sprained my ankle..haix..ytd sprain de still can do lay ups..now cant even walk properly..haix..hope can heal asap ba....we qualify for second round le..wheeee....cheng ba quan guo !!

sorri..

2004-08-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

juz wanna apologize to whoever i offended la...sori..tryin to beg ur forgiveness la...dun forgive nvm ...juz wanna sae..sori...

i suck..

2004-08-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

haix..duno wads wrong with me..findin fault with everione..sian diao la...forget it..dun tok abt it le..ytd went out for whole dae..came back got scolded like siao la..but worth it...v fun..bein v spastic the whole journey....fun ~..v tired....got headache..fallin sick soon le ~

be there for me?...i doubt so..

2004-08-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

haix..got so many troubles..feelin v cold deep deep inside..i m alone...nobody to share my troubles with...some..i told them n they spread it around ...so i feel it iz better to keep it deep deep inside me..and try to compress it..cryin deep inside...but hu cares..miss the old life..in pri sch..with great friends..now tt in sec sch there r not great friends..but cannot compare la..haix..suddenly feel so xin suan..tt feelin of ur heart dropping down ...a lot of times le..whenever i tink of the past la..be there for me can? but i doubt so..bye ~

tired....

2004-08-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

2dae trg quite slack la..except for the start la...run run run..haix...my stamina sucks~..went library for a while den went home ..slept ..had dinner..2dae v sian la..haix..haix haix haix haix haix....

quite happi la ~

2004-08-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

2dae iz a v slack dae..heex..national dae celebration..everione in high mood la..heeex...at car park sing till v shuang..at audi oso...being v playful..after tt went back to pei hwa...my friends abt to leave le lo...den me v evil..dragged them all back to plae bball...go back den kyna attacked by samuel n wei zhong..saw a lot of old friends la..everione at least changed a lil la..went to westmall to watch i robot..quite nice la..tt guy v ap..haha..but i like..bought a bag la..dragged kah loke everiwhere to find a bag..heex..after tt..went to swim..fun la..okie..tata~

to zhi xin: take good care of urself k? rest moree~

di di di.....

2004-08-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

haix..science test most probably flop..feelin real down..like wad alex said...qilixiang n jie kou r sad songs..but jie kou iz more sad la..listen till got tears..stoopid rite? sometimes still feel so lonely n cold..wif nobody caring...onli a few friends truly care abt me...i asked myself at times..y m i so dumb..unable to forget n get on wif life..but i cant seem to..stayin at tt spot ..tinkin abt the past...maybe i m a past...i changed..a lot..my mind juz goes drifting away..i tell myself..i can find someone else...but i tried so hard...but there iz juz not tt feeling..tt deep deep feeling..i tink i had lost tt..since my heart iz broken on.....forgot dae le la..but i sort of predicted it..so a lil prepared..really wan her back in my life..being my everiting...my imaginary world...but it no longer seem possible..haix..crapping as usual la...di di di...*tears drippin now* shi qu le cai hui zhen xi...it iz true..it juz seemed so quick...8 months? passed juz lidat...guessed i din really treasure her..wads the point of sayin all these now...haix... it iz not i wanna be pitied...but tt iz how i m feelin now la...haix..

ass hole...

2004-08-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

xiang hui..wad iz the bloody freakin problem wif u...hai wo lo...i onli did tt to xian wen n zhi rong...2 guys onli lo..u sae all the boys except for a few...lan jiao lo...laff ur head la...fuck..u tink v shuang? chee bye kia....(sry..being a bit too vulgar here..

happi birthdae jing wen..

2004-08-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

2dae the birthdae of our dear chairperson....happi birthdae!!! heex..had match 2dae..won~skipped cid 2dae..wahahhaaha...got test leh....*evil grin* durin lesson time..got ''entertained'' by zhi xin n huay peng...attackin a poor insect..heeex..noe wad zhi xin iz scared of le...wahahahahhaha...poor ting~...hmm..nth le ba...tata~

happi birthdae...

2004-08-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

todae iz a sian dae as usual...in sch got nth special happened la..after sch..went to library...den went to celebrate effie birthdae..haha..got cake somemore....but me nva buy present..*guilty* soweeeee....haf fun there la..went back to library..saw a few fuhua basketballers..should be nth le ba...tata~

slack...

2004-07-31T19:31:00.000+08:00

todae..6.3..got a lil lil improvement...43.02..heex..must break 40..today trg slack slack la..was pissed off by somebody...after tt..me being playful..banged into bernard's face...SORI!!!!..he was v nice la..still ask if i m ok...nice nice ~
After trg went to jec wif frens..slack in library..zhi rong used coins to buy 5 slam dunk comics..poor auntie had the patience to count all the coins..but not my problem..heex..went to the library to slack la..made song dedications..read comics..blah blah blah..till 4 den go home..went to sleep like always..i love sleeping !! heex..hmm..should be nth else le ba...byeeeee~

suddenly so many troubles..

2004-07-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

haix..duno wth happened la..suddenly got so much problems..one iz especially serious...cant stop tinkin abt it...i m scared lo..haix...i m sho dead..
today got nothing much la...another sian dae..got called up durin e lit ... was stunned for a while...was daydreamin ma..but still got answer la..haix...zai ci ge bi ba~tata~

sick and tired...

2004-07-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

..2dae..a lot of tings happened....onli fun time was durin pe la..played basketball..den all the wae till assembly...haha..jian ming so li hai..ap sia..haha...den we all sabo hock sing..so gao xiao..den went to je wif my frens la..xian wen so funny..spilled the drink..but the manager nice la..replaced the drink for him..

reach home le..someting happened..had a long chat wif my mum..finally kai1 qiao 4 le la.i let her down a lot la..disappointed her..i duno wad made me change so much..haix...gettin more n more sick and tired of life and everi other tings...guess i just concentrate on my cca and studies ok le..any other tings can wait la.....haix...tata~

sian diao

2004-07-27T19:53:00.000+08:00

haix..2dae...sian la..nth much..juz feel so tired..haix..duno y la..suddenly feel so down again..haix..bad mood again la..dun care abt me..

haix..

2004-07-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

haix..me juz feel so naive at times..

jia you!

2004-07-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

though we lost 2dae...nvm la...we onli got some mistakes here n there..train harder ba...jia you!! cheng ba quan guo!!

all over..

2004-07-25T20:37:00.001+08:00

i will never forget the days we once had, the days when you were everything to me
my mind used to tell me we'd be together forever.but now i realize that it was all a big dream, which makes my heart shatter into a million pieces.
i sometimes wonder if you still think of me and lurve me, or if to you, i'm just a face in the crowd. i wish so very much that one day we can have it all back,but for now,
i'll sit here silently, remembering the memories we once shared.hoping that one day you will feel the same, and put back the pieces of my broken heart*.your existence is wad makes mine.
now, if love is painful and tortures us so.
why do we love?why is it all we search for in life? this pain this agony?
why is it all we long for?this torture, this powerful death of self?
maybe because it is love....

jia you ! cheng ba quan guo..heex

2004-07-25T16:11:00.000+08:00

haix..2dae sundae..v sian at home..2molo against unity...c boys jia you !!

new blog..

2004-07-25T15:22:00.000+08:00

hihi..new blog here...heex..